urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:beyond_my_smile can you keep up? mellie 2009-12-03T22:23:47Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:beyond_my_smile:400336 2009-12-03T22:23:47Z 2009-12-03T22:23:47Z I'm not exactly sure why, but for the past few days I've been spending a lot of time thinking about people I was once extremely close to who are no longer in my life. I can admit to visiting their MySpace and Facebook profiles, and even reading some of their public LJ entries. Most of them seem exceptionally happy, and this pleases me to no end.<br /><br /><p>Although I'm a firm believer that regret is a waste of energy and that everything happens for a reason, there are some relationships in my life which have ended in ways (and for reasons) I'm not extremely proud of. Especially those relationships in which they were nothing but good to me. I am no saint; there are people that I've done wrong and was less than a perfect friend to in my earlier years. I have lied, cheated, stolen, basically run the gamut of sins throughout my lifetime. Recently, I have been struck again by the fleeting nature of relationships/friendships and how everyone serves a purpose and then moves on with their lives.<br /><br />I am by no means seeking any kind of reconciliation with anyone. It seems that all of their lives are full enough without me in it. But I do have a desire to apologize sincerely to anyone that I've ever hurt - whether it was intentional or not. I wish all of them nothing but happiness and have finally come to a point in my life where I can honestly say I am holding no grudges or ill will against anyone. And, honestly, that feels amazing.<br /><br />I'm sure most of them will never get to read this, but putting it out there does my soul good. :]</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:beyond_my_smile:431 2003-04-18T21:28:59Z 2009-11-30T21:47:23Z <center><br /><br /><i>"Guard that which is important to you with all of your heart; yourself being first and foremost on that list."</i></center>